The Great Escape/

/Saturday, August 11, 2007/

I'VE BEEN DREAMING ALL ALONG
why did you have to wake me up?

So, there were some lies.

About Wednesdayy.

Im not going to focus so much on that issue.

Im fustrated.

I mean, Im REALLY fustrated.

It's because I know that I can never be with you.

The odds are just too much to tackle

or to be pushed aside.

So, this is it.

I guess giving up for good is the only soulution.

It's like I've been dreaming for so long

and that I've been living on false hope all this while.

But im not entirely sure I can get over you.

Sometymes, I play around with these thoughts

and the answer always seems to be giving up.

the answer will never change unless you do.

I hope that one day,

maybe,

some fairy will come down from

SOMEWHERE

and grant me this wish.

Im still hoping and dreaming.

and definately wishing.

That one day I'll be by your side.

I just realized that everyone's vocabulary is better than mine!!

Im lagging behind yet AGAIN.

I never fail to dissappoint myself.

Im am constantly DISSAPPOINTING myself!!!

Talk about self-esteem issues.

pffftttt.

anyways,

Im stuck at home for another day.

Ouuhh grreeaat.

tomorrow's another day.

DAMMIT.

Im grounded for 1 week.

DAMMMMMNNNN!

I'll look forrward to freedom,

while you look for something in the fridge.

Im getting hungry.

WE'LLBETOGETHERSOMEDAY;

YASMIN:]

song: When you're gone-Avirl Lavigne.

yyeaahh, im pretty much feeling it.

here's some pictures:

Im testing to see if this blogskin actually agrees with the damn pictures.

Well then.

here goes nothing...

me and ISAAC. THE LOVE OF MY LYFE.Living on false hope yet again:[

;ISSAC MIRZA BIN ZULKIFLI is everyone's mayn.

;Meeet the family, Still clueless?

Ouh yeah.. That's me. With ashiqin's specs. No i didnt lose my identity.

Enjoyed it yet?

Some new pics will be posted; look out fer 'em

Where are you now?
!@#$%

/Friday, August 10, 2007/

DO YOU WANT THAT?
me too.

Im listening to some new stuff lately.
Doing lotsa new things too.

Im trying NOT to state the obvious,
buut if you HAVENT realized;
NEW BLOG SKIIN.

It's kinda pink isn't it?

Well, tell me what you think about it;
because it seems preety suitable right now.

It's preety simple.
Nothing too fancy.
Kinda plain too.

Maybe I'll find something else;
but we'll stick to this in the meantyme aye?
It's the content that matters isnt it?

Im trying to improve my Vocabulary.
So lotsa tyme being spent with the dictionary again.
Im catching up on homework.

Yesterday was 9th of August.
It's the tyme of year when everyone wears red.
&& all of us look like stop signs.
RED kinda looks good on everyone though.
Ouh yeah..
it's
NATIONAL DAY
agaiin.

I didnt go to school for the celebrations.
sadd-ed:[

All because I came back home 5mins late on Tuesday.
ARGGGHHH!!

My dad asked me to follow my mum to my bro's school
for his DAMN sports day.

On national day.
I didnt even get to watch the parade.
Went out to the Botanical Gardens and spent some tyme off
with the famm.
Took care of my baby brother "ISAAC" most of the tyme.
Planned to eat SATAY but like...
dont want larhh..
so went home instead.
laaaaammme.

At home,
we planned to order KFCCCC.
buuut in the end,
nobody felt like eating except me.
so end:[
my short lived dream of eating chicken.
KAPOOF.

Im happier nowadays.
gooood:]
No more distractions.

Adilah invited me to go to Orchard with her,
but I was busy taking care f Isaac again.

Lyfe with no school is getting kinda boring now..

I'LLFINDAWAYTOBEWITHYOU.
YASMINXD

Where are you now?
!@#$%

/Wednesday, August 08, 2007/

WHERE ARE WE GONNA GO FROM HERE?

So it's 1.34am.

Tomorrow's a school day,

or rather,

TODAY is a school day.

Today...

or yesterday..

or... whatever...

on the 7th of June 2007.

It was preeeety hectic.

With the whole National Day hoo-haa everywhere.

and so the story goes....

Early that morning,

Qaiser said that Jolene wanted to see me.

I was... confused...in a wayy.

He told me to find her after doing morning duty.

So me and Cheryl didnt do much because as soon as we approached the tables,

the students stood up and left the canteen.

AWSOOOME-NESS.

We are getting pro-er by the day.

So after duty,

the both of us ran around like idiots looking for Jolene.

Still couldnt find her.

Instead,

I found Nabil [Sec4] and since I owed hym 40cents.. I gave it back to hym..

actually, I gave hym $1 because I didnt want to keep the coins...

Lucky hym.

Then me and Cheryl went to find Qaiser.

He went MIA too.

DAMN.

SO we ran around the whole parade ground finding for hym,

only to find hhym sitting next to Afandi at the parade ground

=.=''

Soooo... he saw us and dragged us to Jolene at the lower sec block.

AWWWSOOOMEE-NESS #2!!

Turns out,

Jolene wanted to "council" me to stay on the board.

This has something to do with the Aloysius draaamma thingyy.

So I told her that my mind was on staying on the board because Qaiser has already spoken to me about the situation and it was abit akward saying this in front of the ExCos.

So in the end,

me,Jolene, Weiting, Qaiser and Cheryl didnt go for assembly.

We sat at the lower sec staircase and crraaaped on about some other stuff..

When the bell raang.

Cheryl SABO-ED me to stand at the sec 2 staircase and I had to wait until 2N3 arrived.

umm...okkkaaayyy.

Well then...

after that, we went to class, did some crap.

yaddy-yaddy-yaaaa...

then.then.THEEEN.

RECESSSSSSS:DDDDD

Recess, we went abit hyyper.

Didnt see THAT GIRL.

WAKAKAKAKAS.

Then we got a bit too crazy and tired,

so we left.

sadd-ness.

Then after recess,

had the Literature common test.

I did the last question at the VERY LAST MINUTE!

Im sure to flunk this one.

more sadd-ness.

:(((((

Head-ed to mother tongue with Nadiah,

had to do this group discussion thing-y.

but as soon as Cikgu went out of the classroom,

we started to talk crap again.

and our group discussion project

turned out damn funny..

It's about a monkey eating satay and asking this prince if he wants some.

WACKY-NESS!!!

I laughed like maaad after reading the story.

The people just wont stop talking about the satay incident.

They purposely put in the satay part to sabo me.

Drop the subject mayn.

It's getting old.

After school,

we didnt go as crazy as usual.

I ate lunch.

Talked with the peoples.

Got into a big mess.

Got out of it.

and head home.

This is getting boring.

Ahh... yess..

The photosssss.

Im in the process of editing it.

Sorry if it's taking too long.

BEGINNER HERE!!

&& so this is going to take longer than usual.

PATIENCE MAYN!!

I'll try to put it up by tomorrow.

&& Im not going to school.

I dont know whether to smile or frown.

DAMMIT.

WE'LL WAIT FOR YOU TO SMILE.

AND HOW MY DAY WILL SHINE.

yes, i love these things.

YASMINXD

Where are you now?
!@#$%

/Saturday, August 04, 2007/

THERE SHE GOES.

walking out on reality, yet again.

Yesterday was crazy.

I mean reeeaaally crazzy.

It just sorta "messed up" in a weird kinda way.

It's one of those days.

The ones that passed by without you knowiing

and leaves you confused and lets you deal with the mess.

I was too tired to blog yesterday.

considering that i blog daily

it seemed like a must to apologize.

buut.

It's ironic that im apologizing to what seems like nobody

because my blog isnt exactly

OUTTHERE.

Not that I want it to be,

just that whatever Im writting right now,

is not going to be read by anyone except me aye?

Maybe Im wrong.

But of there's really anybody out there

wasting your tyme reading what i write.

Then thank you so much.

Your tyme is much appreciated.

Soooo...

about yesterdayy.

Yesterdday I went for NPCC.

and no it didnt turn out to be what I expected.

I was expecting drills and some training.

but it turned out like this::::

We had to run 5 rounds of the field

no stopping, no walking.

just continuous running.

I didnt have any lunch before training

so by the second round,

I felt giddy and sick

I thought I could still go on.

So I just kept running

but by the end of the third round,

I totally gave up.

I informed the teacher

but I guess it was a little too late.

We haad to sit in the hot sun.

which caused me to have this major headache.

The NCO didnt allow us to sit under the shade,

ONEFORALL.ALLFORONE.

so we just sat down.

I had no idea how to COOL down in the HOT sun.

so we went to the hall for badminton

but this really weird thing just happened.

I was about to jump off the stage,

where I had been sitting,

when I just fell forward

and i just couldnt get myself back up again.

DEHYDRATION

they said

was the cause of my weakness.

I didnt want to go anywhere so I told them to let me cool down

and so i lay there on the stage.

The weirdest feeling just striked me

i just felt like i did something wrong.

tthis feeling left me guilty for the whole of today.

I tried to shake it off

but it didnt want to leave

instead, it clung onto my brain.

Ouh greaat,

headaches.

Im not gonna type on about the fight.

Im sick of it.

Im always fighting,

It's not that I want to.

Everyday Im fighting.

Everyday Im upest.

Everyday I regret.

Everyday I lose my temper.

Everyday Im thinking.

I found my solutions to my anger.

Im cranky everyday, because I think.

I think of the bad.

Then, the bad happens.

When the bad happens,

I think some more.

Then while im thinking...

My body is placed in the classroom on the first level

which is camoufladged with a class filled with students.

When intruppted from thinking,

I get fustrated.

When Im fustrated,

people take the oppoturnity to bully me.

When bullied at a bad bad tyme

I get pissed.

When Im pissed,

Im vulgar.

Vulgarities= baaaaad.

I fight when im pissed too.

I plan to stop on my vulgarities

and the ironic thing is that thinking leads to vulgarities.

I went blogg hopping

and i found out that there's a lot of things happening,

other than the life im living.

&& blogg hopping gets preetty intresthang

especially when the person is enjoying themselves.

as for the people who are in love

and are practically heels over heaads.

Theirs are the most enjoyable to read.

No matter how shallow a person is,

they turn as deep as the sea when in love.

For the people who are crushed,

either from a crush or a former love,

they seriously need some cheering up.

There's no worser pain tthen heartbreak.

The worse thing is that

there's no cure to that.

You cant find a bottle labled

"heartibiotics.

Cures heart breaks.

For rejection only.

To be taken after heartbreaks

and a heavy meal.

May cause drowsiness."

Maybe one fine day,

it'll happen.

Who knows.

Today,

I rejected an offer to go to SWENSENS for some ice-cream to celebrate my cousin's birthdayy.

How clever of me.

I dont know why i rejected that.

WHATSWRONGWITHME.

I guess im too tired.

Now,

Im wishing I was there

chewing and savouring the taste of ice-cream

and screaming for more.more.more.

IMSUCHAMORON.

a total idiot.

Im not getting a chance to eat there until

SEPTEMBERRRR!!

IAMANIDIOT!!

DamnREGRET.

It just hits me hard all the tyme.

HAPPY BIRTDAY TO

DANIAL && DIONE!

best wishes to my

BEST COUSIN,

DANN(:

all the best for your up coming exams.

&& try not to keep on fighting with people kayys ;)

and and alsooo..

all the best

TO MY CRAZZY HYPER MAD INSANE PHYCOTIC FRIEND.

DIONNNEE.

All the best in everything you do.

MUCH LOVE && LOVED BY

YASMIN.

My english teacher mentioned something

about me writting better

than an average sec one student would.

I would love to clearify

that it is not true.

Prove me wrong.

This signifies nothing.

I'll end whatever happened here.

What im saying is..

DO YOU?

DO YOU WANT TO LOSE IT ALL??

This is just a dance hall drug.

You cant wait to fall in loooveee.

YASMINNXD

Where are you now?
!@#$%

"Dance Hall Drug"

Grown up
She just turned 16
Stuck in the moment
Dead at the scene
And it's on tonight
This is the life that you wanted, right?
So turn off all the lights
Dressed up just like a movie star
At all the parties they'll know who you are
Wouldn't it be great, to be fashionably late?
So why don't you wait, till you're sedated

Don't it feel like something's not right in his kiss tonight?

Yeah what I'm saying is do you, do you want to lose it all?
Cause this is more than just a dance hall drug
You can't wait to fall in love
All I'm saying is do you, do you want to learn to fly?
Then you should pack it up and say goodbye
Cause when the push comes to the shove
It's just a dance hall drug

Step in and you can lock the door
The candles are lit and the clothes on the floor
You could take a chance on finding romance
Now you're holding hands
But he's got other plans
Tick-tock, the clock is turning red
The room won't stop spinning and thoughts in your head
And it's too late
You feel like you're making a big mistake
You should've waited

Don't it feel like something's not right in his kiss tonight?

Yeah what I'm saying is do you, do you want to lose it all?
Cause this is more than just a dance hall drug
You can't wait to fall in love
All I'm saying is do you, do you want to learn to fly?
Then you should pack it up and say goodbye
Cause when the push comes to the shove
It's just a dance hall drug

Just wait love
Show 'em what you're made of

Don't it feel like something's not right in his kiss tonight?

Do you, do you want to lose it all?
Cause this is more than just a dance hall drug
You can't wait to fall in love
All I'm saying is do you, do you want to learn to fly?
Then you should pack it up and say goodbye
Cause when the push comes to the shove
It's just a dance hall drug
Do you, do you want to lose it all?
Cause this is more than just a dance hall drug
You can't wait to fall in love
All I'm saying is do you, do you want to learn to fly?
Then you should pack it up and say goodbye
Cause when the push comes to the shove
It's just a dance hall drug

Where are you now?
!@#$%

"Five Minutes To Midnight"

Brown eyes and lungs are filled up with smoke
Fast lives are stuck in the undertow
But you know the places I wanna go
Cause oh oh oh
I've got a sickness, you've got the cure
You've got the spark I've been lookin' for
And I've got a plan, we walk out the door

You know you wanna
Just let go
It's time to roll down the windows
Sing it oh oh
Yeah all we need so here we go

Turn it up
It's five minutes to midnight
You're coming home with me tonight
I can't get enough
Shakin' me up
Turn it up
Alright, at five minutes to midnight
We'll see our name in city lights
We'll make the clock stop
Make your heart drop and come alive

We could
Pack up and leave all our things behind
No fact or fiction or storyline
Cause I need you more than just for tonight
You're oh oh oh like air
I can't stop my breathing in
I'm weak and you were my medicine
I won't stop till I am under your skin

You know you wanna
Just let go
It's time to roll down the windows
Sing it oh oh
Yeah all we need so here we go

Turn it up
It's five minutes to midnight
You're coming home with me tonight
I can't get enough
Shakin' me up
Turn it up
Alright, at five minutes to midnight
We'll see our name in city lights
We'll make the clock stop
Make your heart drop and come alive

And when the clock strikes twelve
Will you find another boy to go and kiss and tell?
Cause you know I never will
I think we should strike a match
We'll hold it to the wind to and see how long it lasts
We can make the time stand still

Turn it up
It's five minutes to midnight
You're coming home with me tonight
I can't get enough
Shakin' me up
Turn it up
Alright, at five minutes to midnight
We'll see our name in city lights
We'll make the clock stop
Make your heart drop and come alive

Turn it up
It's five minutes to midnight
You're coming home with me tonight
I can't get enough
Shakin' me up
Turn it up
Alright, at five minutes to midnight
We'll see our name in city lights
We'll make the clock stop
Make your heart drop and come alive

Where are you now?
!@#$%

/Thursday, August 02, 2007/

BEHIND THESE SHADES

we have the person you've been looking for.

see here's the thing...

Just came back from school.

Slacked around in school with Sara.

During english,

Ms Tan annonced the results for the english common test.

No surprise that Nadiah got in first.

bbuuuuuut.

guess who tied with her this tyme round..

It's ME!

Can you believe it?!?

I mean, I dont study at home,

I hardly concentrate in school

aaaannnddd...

me and Nadiah got first in class.

Both of us got

24/30.

A1?!?!??!

Im still in shock.

After assembly,

we haaad this thiiing.

All the malay pupils have to stay behind for awhile.

Then we all found out that we had to say the pladge in malay tomorrow.

We all had to practice it.

So the people from Sec one to sec five haad to assemble at the hall

and say the pladge in malay.

weiird-ed:/

Im sooo not looking forward to that.

Like WTF mayn!!

PEOPLE assume that

ISTILLLIKEKRISHNA.

no i dont.

So dont disturb me or hym about it.

I think he's fedd upp about it.

Today,

malay class was at the first floor.

Then we had malay common test.

BUUUUUT.

It was damn distracting because people kept on

walkking to and fro.

IRRITATING.

During gymm.

They asked us to jump over the thing-y.

So that's what I did.

I jumped in the air.

Tried to jump over the cushion-y thing.

then the next thing I knew,

I flipped sideways and landed on my back.

Buuut...

The ironic thing was that

the teacher said I did correctly.

Like WTH?!?!

Then.Then.

he ask me do again and again.

Likee WTF?!?!?!

Okaaaayy. akward-ness.

Then for Science

so damn pai sehh...

Ms Wong was doing spotcheck.

So IDIOTIC larhh.

She made us wait outside the Science Lab

for half an hour.

Then did a spotcheck.

I got caught.

Short skirt,

Long frindge.

WTFWTFWTFFFF!!!!!!

Then I saw Jegdish's headd

popping out of the 3N3 classroom.

he was looking at what was happening.

Then when ms wong looked back,

I raised my favourite finger at her

then Jegdish saw and laughed

[[or at least I think so]]

then all the guyys had to remain outside.

sooo sadd-ed:((((

Then after school,

I ordered my toast

then I took a seat.

Then suddenly Fadli passed by.

Then I all of a sudden just cough

and it sounded sarcastic ;))

Then Fadli thought wrongly

and stared at me.

Then me and sara laughed.

I told her it was a REAL cough.

and she was like

HE DOESNT THINK SO.

then my toast was DONE.

Then it just so happened that

Fadli was there.

So I explained to hym

that I REALLY coughed

and he was like

WHHAAAT?!?

Then I had to explain in details

while his friend laughed.

SOO IDIOOT LARH.

:DDDDD

Then,

my brudders..

went for some sort of training.

then me and sara went

to camwhore in the toilet.

ITWENTFINE..

so did my day.

Nothing sadd though.

Tomorrow's NPCC!!!

I dont know whether to smile or cry.

crutt.

EXISITINGTOBREAKHEARTS.

YASMINXDD

Where are you now?
!@#$%

/Wednesday, August 01, 2007/

I THINK IM DONE.
with the thoughts of you.

Yes, yes. YOU.

Im DONE.

Im fed up with the bad connection. If you guyys see me going online then like 5 seconds later Im offline and then 5seconds later im online again, Im reeeaaaalllllly sorry. It's due to the baaaad connection.

I think Im done dreaming because when I finally wake up,
It's you I regret dreaming about.
It just makes me hate you more.more.more.
When I face reality,
I wish I hadn't woken up.

Its confusing reading my blog,
but it more.more.more confusing
to actually go through what I write.

I had a bad day today. AGAIN.

ARGH! I smiled but for only a few seconds.
Wasnt too happy on what's been happening.
I mean who can live with a heavy heart and all this anger
that im feeling???

Yesterday,
the NPCC sec 1s and 2s
went for the Road Safety Park
thaang.
Then AFIFAH
got bird shitt-ed
on her hand.
so poor thing arh.
Then she screamed so funnay seyy.
:DDD

Pamela,
I think you can stopp calling me panjami noww.

Just now,
me,valerie and nadiah.
The ORIGINAL mustketeers.
wore blue.blue.blue again.again.again.
Tomorrow it's back to yellow people, people.
Then mayyybe Friday would be either blue or redd.
or maayybe yellow.
dunt know.

Okay okay,
I think we haad enough on talking about tshirts.

Today,
all the homework just seemed to be dumped on me.
After Science common test,
we had pe
which by the waay rrraawwkkeedd!
We kicked the ball to Chang Peng's head and once
Chervin kicked the ball to Chang Pengg
and he went to CATCH it.
BBoy. ddo we just suckk at soccer
but we scored an A++ for having fffuuunnn.

Brought the mustketeer book back.
I just love.love.love to write on that booooooooooook.
ENJOYA-BUBBLE:))))
ANDANDAND...
me && the slackers did the usual.
SLACK at the normal
MACS:DDDD

Then.then.then,
fiiiigght agaaaaaaaaiiiin.
We cant agree on ANYTHING nowadays.
I was pissed that SOMEBODY
used my phone to sms her
DUNTKNOWWHO.
and then kept calling using my phone.
If the bill bursts, it's gonna be blamed on
SOMEONE.
and.and.and.
I told her that I CANT got to macs,
my mum already BLASTED at me
and then she said to me...
YOUCANTGOTOMACSFORYOURFRIENDSIZIT???
so I told her fine.
but when I wanted to leave,
everyone kept on eating their fries slowly and packed their bags
LIKETHEYHADALLTHETYMEINTHEWORLD!!!!!!!!!
so I gott pissed and walked out.
IDONTGIVEADAMNALREADY!!!

Im fustrated.
I hate getting angry at the same things everyday.
&& im getting tired of being hated and hating people everyday
of my short lived life.

I feel like Im doing everything all wrong.
maybe i am.

Am i doing too much?
or
Am i doing too little?

am I the great friend?
or
am I the best enemy?

Well, I'll only know if you told me.
No, Im not fighting with anyone.

Thanks for those who have never given up on me
and to those who cheered me up,
you deserve more.more.more.

During art,
me, Nathan, Abigail and Wan Qi
got craazzy and
yes, we love the feeling.

YESSSSS!!
Malay class's on the
FIRST FIRST FIRST
floooooor:DDD
That means........

AHHH!!
Im tired.
Tell you more later.

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat and hold
a LOVER close.

Let's get these teen hearts beating faster, faster.

~~LOVE.~~LOVE.LOVE
YASMINXDDD

tomorrow's boorrriing.
saw the tyme table.

Where are you now?
!@#$%

/Tuesday, July 31, 2007/

SCRIBBLED OUT THE TRUTH WITH THEIR LIES.

you little spies.

NOTHING COMPARES TO:

a quiet evening alone.

Today's crazzy buuut yesterday was crazier.

We did have a fight today,

but I found out it was more fun to watch then takke part.

Yesterday the fight involved.

CHANGPENG- THE IDIOT

LOHTING- THE OTHER IDIOT.

and and.

some broomsticks.

Today the fight involved.

ME- THE TIGER.

WEE HONG- THE FCUKER

DARREN- THE EXTRAAA

and.and.

some tears.

WEE HONG was reaally guilty about it and insisted that I hit hym back.

But you are forgiven. really.

Yesterday's fight included a dose of the OM and Mr Quek.

A dash of caning and re-ddoing CIP

and a taste of the Toa Payoh residence.

WECRASHEDTHEAREA:))

Today's fight included a handful of punches.

A bowl of anger and hatred.

and a taste of YASMIN.

IMPISSED.

not to mention fed-up with the fuck-ups.

I cried.

I ADMITT!

yes. I did. and baaadly.

This is the first tyme I showed myself crying so publicly.

sooo pai sehh.

It started waaay early in the morning.

I got pissed in the morning with my friend who thinks she's a popularity queen..

IVEGOTNOTYMEFORYOUBITCH.

and then when I went for duty,

i cool-ded down with my senior.

But I felt really seriously sick during assembly.

cough like maaadd.

I got a little grumpy

after I got to class and saw THAT FACE.

One of the many things that onlly

oneexpressone would completely

and fully understand.

During recess,

I gott damn pissed again with

THAT BITCH.

who thinks that just because she's got a new boyfriend.

she's daaaammmnn popular.

you're boyfriend cant protect you from the likes of me.

Trust me.

When I got back to class.

I was seriously going to smack her fcuked up face

and give her her own medicine.

SHESAFAKE.

Me and all my friends went to her class

but saaaadly her teacher was there.

HUH.LUCKYHER.

Then we all got darn angry

and actually wanted to call her out from her class

but in the end the teacher chased us to class.

IWASSTILLPISSED.

Then in class,

we cooled down and played STRIPPED.

It's a game that I only play when I wear a pe attire.

oneexpressone secret game;)

sort of...

It's not that I hate this certain somebody for nothing.

I've been trying to tolerate with her for

2GODDAMNMONTHS

and it's about tyme we told her off.

I forgive but dont entirely forget.

IMSORRYTOSCAREYOU.

but sometymes,

I scare myself=.="

During music,

Wee Hong punched me

and my back felt really baad.

Wee Hong punched me

BECAUSE HE FELT LIKE IT!!

Then I told myself that we were just fooling around.

Then he kept punching me and kicking my chair.

Then I stood up

and when I wanted to sit down,

he pulled my chair

and my back got scratched by the chair

and I ended up on the flloor.

So I just sat there.

and cried.

I cried EVERYTHING out.

Every existing problem.

Every existing memory.

Every bad moment.

Just everything.

Why I have to move.

Why might have to transfer schools.

Why I have to suffer

but mostly,

I cried because I have to watch others suffer with me.

I would want to take all their pain away.

I would love to see them smile everyday.

Even if Im in the darkest corner of the room,

I would smile to see theirs.

.................................................................................................

I cant take seeing Valerie

looking at Jogathon with a heavy heart.

and Nadiah looking at JM

with hardly any hope left.

It just too painful.

I cant smile knowing that Mark

and his love can never be together.

That Mark is crying on the inside

[[and sometymes out]]

I cant laugh knowing that Chervin

and youknowwho are being denied.

but I cant do anything except sit down and watch.

I cant enjoy myself knowing that

a new war has just started

with me and my used to be best friend.

I cant sleep knowing that we're

all being betrayed and heartbroken

and the world's laughing at the way we live.

I just dont have the heart to do that.

Everytyme I see these people with a smile on their face,

I cant help but smile too.

Today wasnt exactly what I call a breeze

because I was hurting everyone I knew.

but it wasnt rough either,

People were quite haaapy.

When we reached the road saftey park.

My worries were left in school

together with my belongings.

[[and my longings.]]

We reached road safty park

got off a great start.

We got to ride the go-karts

and saman people.

awwwssooomme:DD

NAADDD. FARZANANANANA. ALVINAAAAAAA.

you guyys rawk my world.

Thanks for making me smileeeee.

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

YOUGUYSARELOVEDDDD.

I just wanna sayy..

WEGONNABEGONEWITHOUTASOUND.

IMTHEFIRSTTOFALL,

LASTTOKNOW.

YASMINXD

Where are you now?
!@#$%